Getting Back To Basics

In the past few weeks there has been many trials but also many blessings. I have been gently reminded that addiction recovery works best when I keep things simple. I struggle sometimes with anxiety. I constantly play out worst case scenarios in my mind and tend to assume the worst when stressful situations arise. I have tossed and turned a lot in my sleep these past few days as I pondered how to overcome our financial struggles and other life challenges. This stress leads to triggers and temptations to slip back into my old habits of turning to my addiction as a means of dealing, or hiding from stress.

At my PASG (Pornography Addiction Support Group) meeting last night, one of the missionary group leaders shared his testimony of dailies. The things that I should be doing every day to help me get through the day. I was reminded that the only way recovery works is one day at a time. I have no idea what my life will look like in 6 months or a year. I daydream at times of what it might look like, but ultimately I don't really know. I have today and I am grateful for today. Life is complicated enough without making it more complicated by trying to guess every single scenario that might arise, every hurdle that needs to be overcome.

As I pondered this concept I was reminded of the lyrics to one of my favorite Christian songs by Amy Grant.  It talks about getting back to basics, keeping things simple and trusting God.  That is the only way that works.  One day at a time. 

Don't Try So Hard

Another Monday comes and I just wanna breathe
Cause it's a long, long week for someone wired to please
I keep taking my aim, pushing it higher
Wanna shine bright, even brighter now
Wish I would tell myself
Don't try so hard

God gives you grace and you can't earn it
Don't think that you're not worth it
Because you are
He gave you His love and He's not leaving
Gave you His Son so you'd believe it
You're lovely even with your scars
Don't try so hard

Do you remember how the summers felt when we were kids
Oh we didn't think much about it, we just lived
Taking our time, beautiful leisure
When did we start, trying to measure up
And all this time, love has been trying to tell us
Don't try so hard

God gives you grace and you can't earn it
Don't think that you're not worth it
Because you are
He gave you His love and He's not leaving
Gave you His Son so you'd believe it
You're lovely even with your scars
Don't try so hard

God gives you grace
You can't earn it
Stop thinking you're not worth it
Because you are
He gave you His love and He's not leaving
Gave you His Son so you'd believe it
You're lovely even with your scars
Don't try so hard