Introduction

Hi there,

I just wanted to take a minute and introduce myself.  First and foremost, I am the son of a loving Heavenly Father.  I am also an addict who struggles with numerous addictions including pornography, masturbation, lustful thoughts, compulsive spending, overeating and many other spinoff addictions.

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and actively participate in the LDS Addiction Recovery Program, specifically the PASG groups, that give support to those whose primary addiction involves things of a sexual nature.

I am also a father, a brother, a husband, a son and many other titles and responsibilities that bring me joy and happiness.  Unfortunately these two worlds intersect more than I would ever care to admit.  I have slowly come to the realization that I cannot succeed at the roles that bring me joy without finding recovery from the ones that lead me to despair.

I am here first and foremost as an outlet.  I need to have a record of my struggles, my successes and everything in between, to serve both as a reminder to me and eventually to others. 

I have chosen to title my blog "I Was Lost In The Wilderness" because as anyone who has ever struggled with the loss of hope and despair that goes hand in hand with addiction can relate to, I have indeed found myself 'lost' for much of my adolescent and adult life.  Much like Lehi describes in his dream of the Tree of Life, my struggles have frequently taken me off the 'strait and narrow path' that leads back to my Heavenly Father, and left me lost and wandering in the wilderness.

Thanks for reading

Lost